Before you read this, I just want you to know it’s not a sob story and I’m not looking for pity. I’m explaining how I came to think this way and why I feel this way. Since I was little I’ve always been made fun of for my nose and the way I looked. I’ve always had low self-esteem. My mother never liked me either (I also had an 18 year old sister who she never even acknowledged their existence) the only reason she took me was because my father refused to take me. Bringing me up she repeatedly told me that she wished I was at least mixed, so I could be prettier. When I was young I started wearing makeup just so people might think I’m at least a little bit better. There is so much more to the story but that would be a lot to type out and a lot of reading– but there’s the beginning of it. Having this would make me feel so much better, any amount donated would be very appreciated and I would forever be grateful. I am no longer staying with my mother and have only met my father once due to my mother claiming I was a rape child and me finding out a 17 that that was not true at all (my mother is a sociopath and pathological liar). So I am staying with my aunt and I am grateful enough to her for letting me stay with her until I am done with high school. I know it may seem weird for me to turn to strangers and ask for this but I just don’t know where else to go. I know I will never make the money myself and would be overstepping boundaries if I even dared to ask my aunt. Even if you don’t donate, thank you for reading.
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